It's now almost the end of May, only two short months until I pack up as much as my life as I can fit in two suitcases and move to a faw away land. Having my flight booked and my housing all sorted out (I'm a mere 15 minute walk from my school) things are beginning to fall into place.
I just applied for a work permit (way too late, I know, but I think things will work out) and now only have to take care of a few things before I am almost almost ready.
So, now that I am at least semi on-track in terms of paperwork, it seems I am becoming less and less mentally prepared. Why? Well, it seems my mind can't seem to stop focusing on the things I won't have in Sweden: family, friends, familiarity, food (vegan food), as well as other things that do not begin with the letter f. (work!) And why is my brain doing this? Maybe it's taking mini-snapshots of all the things I love about Ottawa and storing them for me to revisit while I'm gone. Sometimes people come up and talk about Sweden, and it feels surreal, like I'm not actually going to go. Obviously, my mind is more than made up, and the desire to go outweighs the desire to stay. But last night I had a dream that I was pregnant, and thus could not go to Sweden. I was sad about it, because this has been in the works for months and months, and a lot of money, time, and effort has gone into Sweden 2010!
So as I ebb and flow between excitement and mild anxiety, I still have that insane task of packing up my life. Man, this is going to be different!
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